Dear Chase

September 4, 2012 10 Comments

I didn’t cry.

Neither did you.

It was easier than I thought it would be. Mostly because I know how much you need this.  You were really quiet and thoughtful when you went into the class. Hardly giving me or daddy a second look. You were so ready to explore and excited to complete the tasks that were laid out for you. It was bitter sweet.

I’m not sad like I feel like I should be. And I think it’s because every new stage we get to has new fun for us. I’m finding out that one of the best parts of being your mom is watching you experience growth. It’s beautiful. I will love you the same now, at 4, on the day you started preschool, as when you’re graduating from college, or walking your daughter down the aisle on her wedding day.

So why be sad that you are growing up? I can’t enjoy your life if I am drowning in sorrow over the moments that we can no longer share. I can only celebrate each milestone with you, and look forward to the new moments to come.

Love you buddy.

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Comments

  1. Amanda says:
    September 4, 2012 at 9:58 pm

    What a refreshing and much needed perspective. I have been in tears for a week over preschool starting. And I know what you say is true — each new moment and stage just brings new experiences. I’m just a mess.
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  2. Lena says:
    September 4, 2012 at 10:19 pm

    It’s such an exciting time… I’m never sad, just overcome at these moments that seem to be coming so fast!! Lol
    Beautiful post!

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  3. Danette Dillon says:
    September 4, 2012 at 11:25 pm

    Love that last paragraph. That’s some good writing. :)
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  4. cassie @ Live.Laugh.L0ve. says:
    September 4, 2012 at 11:44 pm

    Absolutely beautiful post!
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  5. Absolute Mommy says:
    September 5, 2012 at 12:40 am

    So sweet friend. And so right! Why be bogged down and sad. We should be happy and embrace our beautiful children.
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  6. LINDSAY Roberts says:
    September 5, 2012 at 12:53 am

    SO sweet! My daughter started preschool today and I was a mess! Its way harder on us mommas. He’s a cutie! LOVE your blog!

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  7. Lish says:
    September 5, 2012 at 6:53 am

    AW!!!! What a lil’ cutie!!!! I am looking forward to Gray going to school next year, but know I will cry for sure though..haha…I’m an emotional basket case!
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  8. Katherines Corner says:
    September 6, 2012 at 9:30 am

    awww, what a little cutie pie!! such a sweet post Hugs!
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  9. Krista @RustikChic says:
    September 12, 2012 at 11:30 am

    Perfect:)
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