I have been putting in a ton of time at the gym. I had been yo-yo dieting this whole year and somehow my lose 15 lbs by summer plans were traded in for a fast gain of ANOTHER 15. Not cute, not the plan and I’m way pissed at myself. Every indulgent bite I took of food, I knew was a bad idea, yet I did it anyway. Made the third trip to the pantry that I knew I shouldn’t, for another handful of whatever was in there. The yo-yo ing, the stress eating, and just flat-out reckless abandon and carb craziness. I had to literally check myself before I wrecked myself, since I pretty much already did.
My energy was tanking, and my self-esteem was just in the toilet. I hated my hair, my clothes (or how they fit rather), my body, just everything, and I was doing it all to myself! I wasn’t in a good place for a long time, and I had a few events happen recently that normally would have totally derailed me, but this time, something just clicked and I’m super focused. My eating is now totally clean and I don’t break my date with myself to workout. I’m tired and sore, all the time, but I love it.
I find a lot of motivation online. Finding out everything there is to know about health and fitness, makes me really focused. The more I immerse myself in it, the better. I go to sleep reading about getting more fit, and I wake up ready to grab my shoes and go. If you are having a hard time taking the steps to make a change, look up people who did it/and are doing it. And don’t just skim an article, read more and more. Spend a day researching your body, what it needs, and how you have the power to change it.
This girl feels totally unstoppable and focused.